wow. so it's been a hard morning. it's hard to learn that someone you've worked with for so long is gone. i'm still in shock. it was hard when everyone was coming in and finding out. it's hard to walk by his office. it's just. overwhelming for me. to be strong and pretend like i know what to do in a case like this. i don't know. what do i know?
it's just. sad. a great man. generous. funny. happy. you saw how much of a force he was in the office by the way people's faces reacted to the news. my chest feels heavy. we talk about his tendency to procrastinate and his habit of burning his microwave popcorn and taking the long way back to his office. we talk about his love for his daughters and the joy he took. in every single day. i want everyone to have time to deal on their own. i don't want to worry about the administration of it all. but that's what i'm here to do.
i just want to tell everyone i know that i love them. and i think i will do that.
also, it's her birthday today. my favorite day, dampened by the rain and the tragic news. but now. the sun shines through the clouds. and i will remember WAP and i will celebrate my girl. because that's all there is left to do.